shttering

2006-06-23T21:30:00.000-07:00

it been a week saw yesterday at somerset ...my must i saw her ,,...is tat really fate ...are we really meant to be apart maybe we are hais is sad to see yoo wit him.....i wish i won't have to see yoo wit him ...i just wish tat vry day i was knock down by tat car ...... ..hais now i does'nt since a reason to live on ,......but tat not a reason to run away ....now the maynot be the same ,,,even when yoo* gine life hopefully will never be the same but i got to live on maybe think will be the same one day

henry told me tat day he saw pei yu and she since to aviod him ...... in his dream he dream about him and pie yu together but now ...andi dream tat yoo* will return to me 1day ...but i forget ...dream are meant to be eaten ..dream are meant to be shatter ......

wat about (wish )
henry and me wish tat we can be wit the gal tat we llove ...but wish are never meant to come true wish are never be able to esist in our life dreamwish fantrasy are never meant to come true

i a failure i can't ever give the gal tat i love happiness ..i can't even create a memory for the gal tat i love .....

for all the years that i've known you baby i can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold (didn't you say) if there's a problem we should work it out so why you giving me the cold shoulder now like you don't even wanna talk to me girl (tell me) ok i know i was late again i made you mad and then it's throwing the pan but why are you making this drag on so long (i wanna know) i'm sick and tired of this silly games (silly games) don't figure that i'm the only one here to blame it's not me here who's been going round slamming doors that's when you turned and said to me i don't care babe who's right or wrong i just don't love you no more. (chorus)rain outside my window pouring down what now, your gone, my fault, i'm sorry feeling like a fool cause i let you down now it's, too late, to turn it around i'm sorry for the tears i made you cry i guess this time it really is goodbye you made it clear when you said i just don't love you no more (verse 2)i know that i made a few mistakes but never thought that things would turn out this way cause i'm missing something now that your gone (i see it all so clearly) me at the door with you inner state (inner state) giving my reasons but as you look away i can see a tear roll down your face that's when you turned and said to me i don't care babe who's right or wrong i just don't love you no more. (chorus)rain outside my window pouring down what now, your gone, my fault, i'm sorry feeling like a fool cause i let you down now it's, too late, to turn it around i'm sorry for the tears i made you cry i guess this time it really is goodbye you made it clear when you said i just don't love you no more (bridge)don't say those words it's so hard they turn my whole world upside down girl you caught me completely off guard on the night you said to me i just don't love you more. (chorus 2x)rain outside my window pouring down what now, your gone, my fault, i'm sorry feeling like a fool cause i let you down now it's, too late, to turn it around i'm sorry for the tears i made you cry i guess this time it really is goodbye you made it clear when you said i just don't love you no more

hrmm yoo* may think tat i in SYH but it acc does'nt matter weather i in it or not maybe after yoo seen me in school on monday some may think i when back to ___ but it really does'nt matter been thinking about tis for a long time even when i wit her* ......should i or not .......when back to some memory ...rmb tat for someone* i quit A.S.T but does it really worth ...now think about the past i did'nt have to go for tat course but at least it worth for once ........

contiunce tis tml now going out le

2006-06-16T07:04:00.000-07:00

EVEN IF I GOT THE KEYeven if i got the key so wat ............................i can open all door ..............................but not to her* cause her heart is not open for me ....................so sad x( ......................tears droping off from my eyes ....................................even if i can open the door to her* ....................she might not even let me in ............................even if i wan to climb in and reach out a hand to her ..........................she might not even wan...........................even if i to go tat distance for her .......................she might not even care ..............................even if i broken my hand for her ..............................she might brother for me ..................................even if i took the star from the sky for her ..........................she might even just throw it all.................................even if i done so much for her ..................................she might not even take a look ..............................even if i hurt myself ................................she might even worry for me..................................even she in troulde i stand by her side .................................she might not appriecte it .........................................even if i alway there for her............................................she might not even wan to be there for me ...............................even if i took my guts to say tat i love u ....................................she might not even hear it ......................................even if i kept waiting for her .....................................she might nv give tis chance ............................................even if i tresyre her life tat much .........................................she might not even treasure .it............................................even if i make her dream come true ........................she might not not even treasure it ..............................even if i wan to be ur fansaty ...............................ishe might not give me tis chance.................................even if i wan to be ur hope and love ........................she might not wan............................................even if i wan to stand wit u at the mountain ...........................she might think is too far ...................................even if i wan to walk wit her alone the sand ...................................she might think is dirty .....................................even if i wan ................she might not even ..................................x( tears droping for my eye deep down my heart i need u i know .................there not i not will ing to do for u

can yoo give me a chance

2006-06-16T06:51:00.000-07:00

tis is for her*

dream are maybe meant not maent to come true ................
imagination are maybe also just a imagine tat won't be able to come true ..............
wish are maybe not meant to come true

so wat will come true !!!!!!!!!!
no idea if dreamt won't come true ............
imagination also won't...................
wat about wish ................

most like i meant is dream are meant to be shatter into pieces and imgination are just a blank .........................
wish are meant to be wat tooo........................

wat could i do in order to make my dream come true and how much must i go through to come true ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
or it just meant to be wit blank

if they come true ...................how long will it last ....will it last forever ...............no wan noe ......i just wish to noe

iiin my dream i saw her wit me ........but now i wheater she happy wit the person she love...........................and i don't wish to see her sad ....................it does'nt matter iif u r wit who ...........i a does'nt matter ................for now i wishh u to be hapy annd not hurting urself ......................

i wish to tell you the day the hour the mintues my love for you became real. i only know it seems i've loved you forever.......!!!!

2006-06-16T06:12:00.000-07:00

can i make it can i really make it can i live my life w/o yoo*
can i really forget yoo and just be frenz ..i don't know it hard to accpet tat yoo wann break .....is the thrid time in my life tat yoo heart my heart will there be a forth time yes i will wait till the end of my life ,....i try to be a frenz to yoo even it hard to forget yoo .....but i won't forget cause i so in love wit yoo i only wanne be wit yoo tat all my wish ...hrmm even how badly yoo hurt mi i still be there no matter wat when or not yoo need me i be there ...i will wait for your return ... is hard to be apart for me but to yooo ??? i don't know may be yoo already wannted to ...
but if there one more chence i will take it ....i will treasure her more and more each day ......each moment ....her dream wish fanasty is'nt me at alll it was him....it never is me de ....i never be her* dream wish hope fansatry ..hais .....vry fan now and it about to be day lightv and i still could slp i will rmb tis day ......and 21march ...........hope wat even she do may it alll came truth ......but my came truth for tis time i grate yoo give me all tis chance ...and i will wait for your return ......i sill love yoo ........yoo my only one ........!!!!

2006-06-11T08:34:00.000-07:00

hais i back from the camp ..haha got 3rd sergent vry lousy ....but got pass at least i did'nt disappointed honey ..... baby do yoo noe during the camp how much i miss yoo how much i need yoo do yoo noe everyday day before slp i readed tat letter yo give ..i trouch by it dear ..thk for everything yoo dive me ireally app it dear thk yoo ..iloveyoo ....
how long long will yoo wait for mi?
how long will yoo wait for my return ...??
if yoo go,leaving me here on my own ..
well i will wait for yoo , but i will wait !!!
it's been a while , where should we began ..feels like forever
with my heart memories ..or perfect love tat yoo gave me
i remember , when yoo are with me
i'm free ...i'm careless ..i believe about all other we'll fly
tis tears to my eyes .. my sacrifice
i am so high i can hear heaven oh but heaven can't hear me
and they say tat a hero .i feel my wing have broken in your hand
i feel the words unspoken inside when they pull yoo under
and i would give any thing yoo want , yoo were all wanted
all my dream
someone save me let your warm hands break thought me
i'm still waiting for yoo
little by little we gave yoo everything yoo ever dream of
as little by little the wheel of your life have slowly grow
little by little yoo noe how much i love yoo

BaBy(>(o0)<)
today is 11 june ten more day to 21 june i so looking forward hais i i really can bring yoo happiness .(.>(o0)< ) i hope i can ..!!! Oh I need you baby!!Yes I need you baby!!! Come on back home to me !! I'll make it all up to you ! I know I was wrong baby i sorry I foolish Now I've settled down baby And I know I'll treat you right Yes, come on home now baby My love comes tumbling down ..Baby i need your love your care i really need it i know i can't live w/o yoo baby i sorry for all those thing tat i ise to hurt yoo i noe tat io in wrong i sorry I LOVE YOO BABY I KNOW TAT I REALLY DO
i can't stand to fly
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home i'll never see
Up, up and away away from me
Well its all right Yoo can all sleep sound tonight
I'm crazy in llve wit yoo*
Put away my tears and my sleepy eyes
misssing yoo like i nv did I'd sworn it was you Who was destined I can see that you kept all the memories we'd kept
From here
ILOVEYOO*FOREVER till the end of world

2006-06-01T01:13:00.000-07:00

hais now really not in a mood .....really tis is'nt my day ......wat am i suppo to do i don't know .....i hate myself i really hate myself .....i rally do ..hais ....i can't belived ...hrmm if yoo say nv change than i relly don't belived hais ......i don't know belived or not ...i really don't know heavnly strike me for a my evil .......i don't wish to know anything i don't WAT SHOULD I DO ???? .....

And when the night is through
I'll be lying here with you
Close your eyes turn out the light
Say a prayer to see us through the night
Hope your dreams come true
When dawn turns into blue
I'll be lying here with you
Too much of something
Tends to spoil you so they say
But i can't get enough of you
I tell you something
I never listen to what they say
I only know what i must do
My cares will drift away
Leave them all until another day
I really do mind or i don't (i don't know now)
As long as i can find
That i'm lying here with you
Too much of something
Tends to spoil you so they say
But i can't get enough of you
I tell you something
I never listen to what they say
I only know what i must do
My cares will drift away
Leave them all until another day
I do really mind or i don't ( i don't know why )
As long as i can find
That i'm lying here with you

I've been trying hard to reach you,
cause I don't know what to do
I'm so scared about the future and
I wanna talk to you
Oh I wanna talk to you
You can take a picture of something
you see In the future where will I be?
wat am i to do ?
tell me wat to do ?

really not in a mood to blog i don't know why ...?i really don't know why ..each time think happen i know i the am who run away ..i don't wish to face it

does fate really brought us together ?? yes maybe
does hais not really in a mood toi contince

ILOVEYOO* pls don't hurt my heart ........
i love yoo* i really do ................hais

maybe to conti the rest later tonight ...see first ba

2006-05-28T11:00:00.000-07:00

Is been quiet a longtime since I last update tis blog …a long time it is a bout 29 or 30 day a month ..wow wat a month it is ..promise honey tat I will update blog on Friday de end up nv till today than update so honey …guess now yoo r slping ..wish yoo have a good slp slp tight sweet dream ….i love yoo hrmm tis few sentence everynight .it will make yoo slp well for it ….hrmm a month it is ..many thing happen during tis month quiet a lot ..having some argue ment wit daring ..tis month …we been thought so much ..and I wish can be together as long as a _____ .?? guess yourself hey daring now is already 215am guess yoo r slping soundly right now ….iloveyoo …trying to edit blog but got some mistake tml than re-edit again ..hahaha ……..tis month there fighting in my life …I was wack twice ..end up in hospital haha the nurse there vry funny ….anyway hand was injury but now okay le ……hrmm the second wanne was being wack in the bus six on one ..of course I lost it nv wanne to fight de but no choice so sorry dear tat I have to fight “n’ I promise not to fight de end up I fight haha sorry dear don’t be angry wit mi k iloveyoo …….hrmm yesterday when to school for ncc camping ps daring she angry wit me but now okay le when at 4+ when daring is having tuition she mad at me ..haha I miss yoo so much dear I really do …..hrrmmm walk to cen for 1st time in westwood our school walk there and is my cca …..

2006-05-11T07:33:00.000-07:00

wow today darn pEi cHa ..........not enough sleep .ar... !!! early morning ....complain pain .........hand pain ............... got up three time ........ can't really slp tat well .......................so msg dear but she half an hour than reply back ......hais ..but end up msg her till i slp .....and i sorry dear tat i fall a slp again last night i so sorry i did'nt meant to slp de .......hrmm guess i get punish by yoo 'n' get yoo a arward for coming home by time ...............tis world is so sm,all ......we met by fate ....we met so easily .......guess when i miss yooo so so so much ,...yoo just appaer infront of me even tot to day nv walk wit yoo all nv say hi ..sorry .........don't wish to spoil your day .......hrmm tis world is really so small ...guess tis is call fate .....

2006-05-01T07:05:00.000-07:00

hais ...wake up early in the morning to do tis bloging ......cause did'nt sleep tat well ...have some tots.................hais ...can't really slp tat welll .....so woke up ...and than tot of something ................

hais baby today going to meet junhao ...they all hope everything will be find ...if anything was to happen just baby don't wan telll me de.....but hope it will be fine of course go study wat so wat could happen ............tot of freedom ...and wonder maybe i should give baby more freedom who she wanne hand out wit .....and her own space..........hais guess i should give her more of her own time wit who even she wan hand out wit ...................hrmm now i don't even know has baby wake up or not ...don't wanne wake her up from her sweet dream ..........baby do yoo know i miss yoo tons .............and how much i wish yoo by my side now .................... but guess still give her more own space ..so forget it ......................my head is still having so tots ...'n' i don't really know ...................hais vry __________ donno ..........................

BaBy do yoo know how worry am i ma ..............i don't wann anything to happen on to yoo ......i just scared hais..don't really know wat to do

will be going out wit qiqi , cynthia ..........today and one more person don't know who tat .............don't even know going or not going o orcard tat meant i got to top up my ezlink ..........going to ORD ......hrmmm sure will look out for the shoes i wanne saw it many time but all not tat nice hais ........i saw wanne one of the shoes ......it dam chio ...but too expr $$$ is for itaily wherer got money to buy le ...hais sad sia ......don't know when than i can go to itaily for holiaday ............not sure is france or itaily ......forgot le

till now baby has not msg me ........guess she still slping or she thining i still sleeping ..........hais ..I MISS YOO DAM MUCH ...IMISSYOO* SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOMUCH...iloveyoo ....

guess i still abit not well boby vry warm ...maybe did not sleep well 'n' tml will be having exam le ..my paper going to strart le

guess today we won't be meeting each other ......she will be having her own space ......my her frenz .....hope she will enjoy her when i not there ......hais........going to be worry for her ................

2006-04-19T08:00:00.000-07:00

hais.....................haven't be updating tis blog for numders of days ...wondering where i have been to .......wat have i done .............hais just too many ........i just got to say sorry to tat person ...my very important person that in my life i really can't live without yoo ......i sorry wat i have done i did'nt know yoo think about the past ...........if i have know that i will make yoo thought about the past i would'nt have did it .....i would'nt have i nv thought all tis would happen ........i could'nt forget wat i have done to make yoo thought of the past ....i really can't forget it .....dear i really can't i try but today , yesterday about wat i have done ...................maybe i really can't bring yoo so much happiness but i won't give up now de just be by your side all the time ...............i don't wanne to make yoo think i will be like them i different ............for them ................i not sure or not but i try to be ______ i don't really know how but 30day have past and i since like a few month .......during tis 30 day there many thing i learnt .....1 is to trust yoo 2 is to wat _____ in yoo 3 is to be there for yoo ...and all tis did i do it ...i donno ....but i will do it tis time tis day and the rest of the day ............today in school we talk less than 10 word ................sad x( ,..............but my mind kept think about yoo ................i noe i when to soccer and not go wit yoo ..but i wanne tell yoo tat yoo r more important than soceer ..YOO ARE MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANYTHING ,EVERYTHING AND ME .................I LOVE YOO I REALLY DO >>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<<< LOVE YOO my heart belong to yoo and only yoo .....

2006-04-08T07:46:00.000-07:00

morning got wake up by msg from kO
woke up ......at 730.....stAy at hoMe tIlL 11+
meEt up wit frenz ....when to jackson house ....there 5 ppl there waiting le ..haha i was lated again alway meet them i was the lated wan
than head to ...can't rmb tat place name don't know how to go
just follow ppl go ......`tat place wow darm adult alll like wat ....no choice first time going there but saw many ex men ......can't remender their name but noe tat we used to hang out together ...... did nearly smoke again ....but did'nt hais ..some time i really can't take it ...it just like____________ drinking i think should be allow ba by her .......next week going to meet up again i think but this time i will wear extra shirt ..scared late gan wak like wat ....must should not go also.......but is the 16 quiet any important bday .....
cut my hair today and dye abit of colouring .....guess wat colour
tis the hair cut look is short and .....tin....

hais today hang out wit them is not really tat long since i last met them is not reaaly tat long we last met just have a stange feeling when we meet up when i no longer _,_,_ mend ya yoo all still treat mi ____thank alot

can see ma

can see anything ma there a _____

hais why yoo today keep on saying nothing but when there some thing
i sorry tat i did'nt reply yoo last night ...........'n' i sorry i did'nt msg yoo today ..........but i miss yoo lot ................

i miss yoo ,i really do

Sometimes wind blow s
a new moon moves at last alone
feeling far above her
oh how lucky we are
while I give to you
would you give to me
true love true love
so on and on it will always be
true love true love
for you and I have a guardian angel
on high with nothing to do
but to give to you as you give to me
love forever true
love forever true
for you and I have a guardian angel
on high with nothing to do
but to give you as you give to me
love forever true
love forever true
give me more true love oh yeah
true love true love
true love true love
got to give me your oh yeah oh yeah
true love true love
true love true love
for you and I have a guardian angel
on high with nothing to do
but to give to you as you give to me
love forever true
love forever true
love forever true love.

Wanna tell you I love your way
Wanna be with you night and day
Ooh baby I love your way every day
Baby come take my hand
Tryin' to make you understand
Well I love you you see
Baby come on and go with me
Baby be true to me
Like I'm true to you
Well stick around wit yoo 'n' onli yoo
i love yoo ..for my heart i love yoo

2006-04-01T07:50:00.000-08:00

today morning was....okay.....woke up early for saterday to find her ...............than after breakfast head to my house .........than she go to school.......hais~don't wan to mention le.
really in a bloodly bad mood ....2 thing happen ,........1 is if mother so agrue tat make me vry the stress.........sec wit frenz.................k donno wheater got go or not ...............
got one more thing ............tat ......is in the _____ about someone

2006-03-29T04:43:00.000-08:00

nV go to school today stay at home ...all day ............missing her* kinding of boring ...at home nothing to do ,........ intent to go out but promise someone not to go out ........ so stay at home lo ..xp

Early in the morning, I put breakfast at your table 一夜都没睡但我　不曾如此清醒我早餐准备了你　爱吃的东西这次换我等你被咖啡　的香味叫醒想要找回每天早晨　对我微笑著的你还能够　做些什麼代替我的歉意总是望著我　小心翼翼顺著我呼吸而我竟然理所当然　让你精疲力尽 You were my superwoman 安静的在身边　无条件给我　梦寐以求的温柔 But I am only human 我怎麼不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错不能失去你 Ooh—Babe--- You fought your way through the rush hour Try to make it home just for me 月光下静静靠著彼此　只求夜长一点有多久没有好好看你　只是认定了我无论在什麼时候回头　都有你的笑容是我忽略了你也会有　想要哭的感觉没有一种付出应该永远心甘情愿再给被宠坏的男人最後一次机会换我忍耐换我等待　不要真的弃权 (---Baby)是我把爱想得太简单以为只要我存在就能让你取暖心裏唯一的superwoman没有人能代替不能想像更不能原谅这样让爱化成　灰烬 If you feel it in your heart and you understand me. STOP right where you are, everybody sing along with me.

there something ..........

2006-03-28T08:03:00.000-08:00

i sick ooh got mc for two day tat mean won't be able to see her* two day ...sad se..x( ... miss her* tons millons .......

had a bad dream last night ....don't wan it to come true ..i nv wish tis dream to come true......i nv allow it de ....cause i nv do something bad to yoo*

i realise tat
I long to be Her possession
Oh,sHe is my everything
I remember my days of darkness
Without sunshine or sight to lead the way
But a whisper of Her voice softly calling
To the arms of my Maker to stay
sHe is my reason for living,
Oh sHe is the of all I long to be her possession,
Oh, sHe is my everything
After the lighting and thunder
After the last bell has rung
I want to be before her
And hear her say i love yoo
sHe is my reason for livingOh
I long to be Hes possession
Oh, sHe is my everything

its a long long road to a better destinationis
it for real or is it jst an imagitation
theres nothing like the fear of you not being here
i'll always b by ur side u make me feel alive
we put each other down you've always known how to make me feel so real
promise that you'll never let go[promise you'll never let go]
don't let go promise that
you'll never let go[promise you'll never let go]
i don't ever want to b apart
promise that you'll never let go
ooh don't let go
promise you'll neva let go
i don't wanna b alone no

i love yoo*

2006-03-27T04:49:00.000-08:00

I AM SICK so bloodly warm in my body for a moment and cold .......so tried .......i rather cold than warm can't take it le ........... took 2 pan-na-door also still the same ............. no use at all wanne compain it le ............
today when to school k la nv get scold is a good start for tis week .... nv go for cca again cause i donno about it no one infrom me...so had no idea tat got cca or not but noe got P-O-P ...........don't wan to mention wat happen in the 8 lesson only wan to say the last wan ...cpa....3 lesson boring like hell ...got wark on the floor when ... outside the lap ..think is 4 ppl ..one sit on top of me ...nvm..when okay le than sit on them ......sit wit azlan the horny guy ...... so wat .....keep on say those thing ....closing my ear ...and trying to slp ...feel cold in the lap cause sitting at the back of the class today so can take a nap ....but unforc teacher keep on walk past my table cause not listening to wat he speak................after lesson when home ..she* came to my home too ...........don't think dirty minded thing hor ......... house was now under revonation ........moving back once the house is done i hope so can walk wit her to school everyday and walk home ........how great it will be ......... too back donno when it will be done ............. pool table also can not played wan cry le so long nv played le ..............wait for my xlp...to finish to come find us ................. ...

for her* my one 'n' only her* iloveyoo* for the button of my heart there onli yoo* i love yoo the way like no wan else i treat yoo like no wan else did to yoo* ...i

the last thing on my mind
when i closed my eye
soooo oooo oooo my my
is our first kiss
it might've been rainin
'it might've been sunny,
it could've been your house
it might've been monday
the truth is i'm clueless
a little bit hazy
but when i remember
i can almost taste it
the last thing on my mind
when i closed my eye
sooo ooo ooo my my
is our first kiss
a tiny bit nervous
did you open your eyes?
cause i did
i couldn't say nothin'as i let it sink it,
i was just waiting to kiss you again!
the last thing on my mind
when i closed my eyes
yeah, ooo ooo ooo my my
is our first kiss
the first thing on my mind
when i opened my eyes
baby, ooo ooo ooo my my
that's as far as it gets
the last thing on my mind
when i closed my eyes
the first thing on my mind
when i opened my eyes
yeah, ooo ooo ooo my my
that's as far as it gets

The very thought of you makes
My heart sing,
Like an April breeze
On the wings of spring.
And you appear in all your splendor,
My one and only love.
The shadows fall
And spread their mystique charms
In the hush of night,
While you're in my arms.
I feel your lips,
so warm and tender,
My one and only love.

The touch of your hand is like heaven.
A heaven that I've never known.
The blush on your cheek,
Whenever I speak,
Tells me that you are my own
.You fill my eager heart with
Such desire,Every kiss you give
Sets my soul on fire.
I give myself in sweet surrender,
My one and only love.

The blush on your cheek,
Whenever I speak,
Tells me that you are my own.
You fill my eager heart with
Such desire.Every kiss you give
Sets my soul on fire.
I give myself in sweet surrender,
My one and only love.
My one and only love.

there no path i won't walk with yoo
there no place onthis earth i won't go with yoo
there no one else in my heart only yoo is in my heart
i love yoo like no one did
i treasure yoo like no one did before
will me share your pain
let me be your dream hope love 'n' everything
i try my best to furfull your dream
i love yoo no matter i be by your side

see i so good even sick also update just for yoo*

2006-03-25T06:11:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOO! yoo said alot of things that really moved me heart today.Dont be so worried and dont oweis think too much yah?Yoo told me that wait I like last time leave yoo,hear le kinda sad.=/ I LOVE YOO loads loads! I dont know why yoo will love me so much,but I'am really lucky to have yoo.I love everything that yoo did for me,hug me,kiss me,protect me.x) Feel veh safe and protected when yoo hugged me when I sleep today.Yoo made me feel that really yoo will nvr hurt me and yoo are not just saying it,yoo mean every word yoo said.And I love yoo. =) My love for yoo keeps increasing and I cant bare to part with yoo,even tho i saw yoo today,it seems like thousands of years.x( miss yoo so much baby. Miss every single bits and pieces of yoo.truly,madly,deeply in love with yoo.x)

I LOVE YOO SEN,MY ONE AND ONLY!
MY LOVE,
MY GUY,
MY DREAM,
MY WISH,
MY FANTASY..

MY..EVERYTHING.!

2006-03-23T06:02:00.000-08:00

for her *

Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
And I'm here waiting
And I wrote this letter in my head
Cuz so many things were left unsaid
But now you're here
This could be the one chance
To make you understand
I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you
Dreaming of yoo
So now maybe after all
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here , I'll be waiting
This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again
I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Will you remember me?

Cuz I know
I won't forget you
I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you

And I'd do anything for you
I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
I'd do anything
Cuz I know
I won't forget you and i love yoo

thank for giving me a chance too be wit yoo*
i love yoo* i try to bring u happiness and ....................
as long yoo happy i do wat ever yoo like ...........

Well, I know it's kind of late
I hope I didn't wake you
But what I got to say can't wait I know you'd understand
Ev'ry time I tried to tell you
The words just came out wrongSo
I'll have to say I love you in a song
Yeah, I know it's kind of strange
But ev'ry time I'm near you
I just run out of things to say
I know you'd understand
Ev'ry time I tried to tell you
The words just came out wrong
So I'll have to say I love you in a song
Ev'ry time the time was right
All the words just came out wrong
So I'll have to say I love you in a song Yeah,
I know it's kind of lateI
hope I didn't wake you
But there's something that
I just got to sayI know you'd understand
Ev'ry time I tried to tell you
The words just came out wrong
So I'll have to say I love you in a song

I LOVE YOO*
and no one else

2006-03-22T00:52:00.000-08:00

I LOVE SEN!! (x harts yoo oweis!
21 march! I will oweis rmb this day!
Yoo gave me happiness and love.
2 days!! ~ Wee x)
MUST eat ohkays?Dont oweis eat meggi mee. Now yoo must be in NCC,take care of yourself ohkays? Becareful worhs.=)

Hope yoo not angry that I hecked into your account.=x Study hard hor.Dont oweis sleep. Lazy pig. =x HAHAHs. (^(oo)^)

I LOVE SEN,now and forevermore! x)

2006-03-19T04:47:00.000-08:00

tis entry is only for her* the gal tat i love
i just wish i knew

some time i wish to noe wat u* r thinking ..........................i just really wan to noe wat at ur mind.............i can'y seen to really understand u tat well ............. i donno why but i just can't seem to ............ there alot of thing make me realisze tat ...... some thing just seem to go wrong ,,................ i asked u a question today in the afternoon ....and u answer ...later at night i asked again and u now say u donno ............that make me really confres and now i don't really noe wat in my head ........... think of ...... u tell me forever 1 weekl vry scared.................... scared tat after tis 1 week i make u happy than after tat i don't care about u le.........scared only than u ask why i wanne make u smile forever .....and i tell u tat u someone specail ....than u say wanne be wit yoo enough le ............than i say i there le ....than u say i know scared one day will lose me ...........but now i promise i won't leave u unless u wan me to ..............i just try to bring real smile to ur face even for tat secound i also happy wit it ..............but i afiad is not i who leave u and is u who the one who laeve me alone again .............i just wish to noe u better tat wat i hope ................

if tis 1 week i try my best to make u* happy .............
if i can't than can we restart it all

There’s the girl, smiling ( willit be you )
That is walking in the slums of her town
Who is she? I don’t know…. ( i wish i knew )
Could it be my dreams of that girl? ( wish tat ut will be you )

Where have she walked away ( looking for you all the time)
With her smile upon on her face? ( is it
She was so wonderful…. ( she the gal i wan to be wit )
How could I just stand there?

She could be waiting ( i wish tat )
For me to come to her (I wish )
I’ll find her right now ( nomatter where u r )
Maybe it could be my dreams of that girl

I will speak to her when I am not afraid
To show my - (self)

Who is she? I don’t know…
There is the girl who waiting for me
I won’t stand here right now
I will run to reach her hand

She’s not shy but I am
How could I be so nervous?
She is smiling at me
Why can’t I smile at her?

Maybe it could be my dreams of that girl
Is she real or just my imagination of that pretty girl?

It could be my dreams of that girl in my heart
u took my heart away till now i still love u

I'll Never Break Your Heart

Baby, I know you're hurting
Right now you feel like you could never
Love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you

From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would
Be together forever
Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt like you'd never love again
I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and
I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in, you were so quick to judge
But honey he' s nothing like me

I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me Honey,
that's no lie

As time goes by
You will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes baby, baby
And I know you're afraid
To let your feelings show
And I understand Girl, it's time to let go
I deserve a try honey Just once
Give me a chance
and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in,
you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see

I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me Honey,
that's no lie

As time goes by
You will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes baby, baby
And I know you're afraid
To let your feelings show
And I understand Girl,
it's time to let go
I deserve a try
honey Just once
Give me a chance
and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in, you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see

I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me Honey,
that's no lie

No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)
I swear (Oh I, oh I, I swear)
No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)

i nv make u cry i promise .....i nv leave you till u told me to ....i nv leave u in the dark ...all i wan is to be wit yoo*

2006-03-18T08:06:00.000-08:00

ONE WEEK TEST....................
will i pass ...how to make her* smile ............got any idae....is 1 week enough.....or 1 month..1 year or forever............just got to try my best ...must make real smile for her face

today early in the morning got afew morning call ...........wow make me wake up for my dream ...............so bad lor ........ cindy when to my bus-stop to wait for me to go west coast ............cindy vry noise lor alone the way to west coast ...................... took cad there ...ask me to pay first than say return half but till now not yet ruturn..................when to coey celebratetion at west coast ......was not the last wan to reach there .......still got somemore ppl later than me .................and cindy..........................stay there till 1+ than head to sentosa .....................to look for her*....................took bus 30 sit till butt pain...............wit mark .........................
when reach le sentosa went to palawan .....so big ...can't find her* so go up the two tower and see ...............wheater can spot her* or not .......can't but she spot de us instead ...............................did manged to throw cris down the sea...but not tat deep........................... hahaha.........got mark they all to help me ................ hrmm going to sentosa again on 15 apirl....after something important .ask her wheater wan to go ..she say nv going to sentosa again.........so guess is no...nvm ask other ,.......hehehe...........did see her* in sentosa today ask her to put lotion don't wan now got sunburn ......hahaha...pain right ..who call u not to listen to me ...........serve u right ....no la ............must put lotion so it won't hurt tat much see i so concern about u*.............so must listen to me in furture ............its all for ur* good ...........see i wat to u* ...........back to today......when to sentosa till 645 than go to the market and eat ............than 7+ took bus 30 to JP so long the dict sit till slp in bus miss so show ............along the way went i slping .................. when to frenz house oppiste JP when there for 15 to 39 min than took 172 to find her* at north vale ............. so scared along the pass by those thing to there .......see for u went thourght that place allone so dark some more ............................. meet her* at the whose house ... donno how to spell ................waited for her* 'n' other than when diff way ....some took bus ...and for us we took cad....wit vi..also donno really noe hoe to spell her name ..............send her to her gate than walk her* home ..............haha can't see right not scared i bring u to other place ........... nvm did go home right .. must put lotoin k ......anyway take care ....................mis you* and love u ...............................maybe there is something ....for you* ...................see first if i can rmb to put tonight

2006-03-17T06:04:00.000-08:00

yesterday did'nt slp tat well keep on wake up wat in my head ...maybe worry about her* wat will happen ..................today donno noe wat happen but woory like wat even ask sky to call her house than she not at home but ...........she not at home ...any thank sky for helping me to call .............but she did call me ........at sq house ask me to come out .........to jp to eat lunch ....... and walk wit sq and her sis..............till 2+ than go so early go home ............ chat wit her* till sleep........................

tml gooing to west coast to celebrate coey birthday ...must wake up early .............donno wat will happen ...hear there is going to have fighting for fun ....donno but i play alone if is for fun de la .............got compition .......donno who will win .....................after tat more porpoer going to sentosa after tat so can see her* but don't noe she go le or not or still there ,,,,,,but they go there for class wat ..4get le ...........hope late at night can go home wit her* ...if can la ..................if can lor ,,,,,,x(

got something for someone* special but can't rmb le ........................wait till i rmb than i tell her ..*

2006-03-16T21:59:00.000-08:00

Ar don't wish to talk about wat happen wit my parent .......since u all the the truth now wat u all going to do ...................tis time ....say can't slp last night ...........i can hardly belived u .............u wan noe y .......cause i don't even noe ........say is ur fault ....who noe ....i don't think so ...............cause i 'n' brother is living in the diff world ...... .....u all r just .......wat to me ...........donno.......................i nv understand wat u all r thinking

really happy tat she* did'nt go and find him ...today..........but will them...aruge..tat i i worry..........................about......
when to school at 1230 to meet her or so call fetch her........ask her where she wan to go ...end up going to_______........guess urs .............

wat the think stuck in my mind,,,,casn' since to take it out my can't i stop thinking about it ....why is there so mush thing happening around me ,,,why must all tis happen ,,,,,,,,,,,just i nv noe ,,maybe is all fates to brought me to tis life....so fan..over tis prodlem.......just wan forget all those past thing wat i did 'n'....will i do those thing again to cause me so much troudle .................wat am i going to do if i do those think....AGAIN i nv noe............
my life my boring life my boring life suck

hrmm i guess you * more fan than me ...tat y u sick x( why eat mechine or else it be more worse..........i did'nt sing to u tis song cause ...i can't rmb the lrycis ....but maybe next time sing k i rmb it than i sing........the song u like...k u still own me a song.............i rmb it and still own me a think if i rmb ....i noe got thing but can't rmb.................

All the darkest around me

Seems to fade and go away

Because you make me realise

That duriong the night

There 's still some light

Ever so bright

and tat you *

2006-03-12T22:49:00.000-08:00

today my profile is all for

everything just happpen in a single night
i don't even have the time to comfort her be by her side
why did cut urs* almont so many thing why must u cut urs*
u*noe u will break the promise tat u promise me
maybe the promise u* make it mean nothing to u
but to me is a promise tat i try not to break
but end up is u who the 1 to break it
so i guess i don't have to keep my word
but for now i choose not to cause is more sad to see her* in tis way ........

i could'nt slp last night cause i being thinking how deep is ur* cut
i would'nt blame u for cutting urs hand cause i noe u r vry stress now
but in furture don't k ..there nothing more pain than see u in tis ...

the gal tat i can't have
............
yet she the one i need
.............
and the only one i want
............
it hard to let go
...............
u're tough for standing on ur own
..................
i want u happy
................
i hope u find home
..................
please don't forget me
......................<3>

................ tears falling off

as i see u* .........
tell me the truth
tell me u would not go
tell me u nv go
nv run away alone
i be there wit u if u run
i go where ever u go so must call me
sometime
i wonder have u ever love me or all the time is i the one
i wonder oneday if i end up in the hosipital
when i open my eyes who will i see
i wonder if i out of westwood sec
out if your life who will be replaceing me
wat am i too u ....a person tat is there all the time
or ....a person of wat .........

Through the streets of your heart,
Just give me your hand
And I'll walk with you,

Through the mountains so grand.
If you give me your hand.
Just give me your hand,
And come along with me.
Will you give me your hand,
And the world it can see,
That we can be free,
From the north to the south.
From the east to the west.
Every mountain, every valley,Every bush and birds nest!

Just give me your hand,
Let me hold oh to your hand
Just give me your hand,
And i never let go
Will you give me your hand
Let's me be there for you
Let have your hand

By day and night,
Through all struggle and strife,
And beside you,
to guide you,
Forever, my love.
For love's not for one,
But for both of us to share
Let me hold onto you and never to let go
It never be now but i will oneday i will be the one
..................Reach out for my hand ..........

take my hand i always
reach out to hold u tight

it may not be now but
oneday i will hold onto u 'n' nv let go
waiting towards the day to arrived
take all ur time u need afew day , a week , a month, a year , 2 year , and ever if 5 year or wat i still reach out my hand for u de

2006-03-12T14:40:00.000-08:00

ar hate convesation wit parent
why must we understand than first why can't they understand us
i really can't take tis .....
everything also nag 'n' nag
promise everything also nv do
than why must i ketp my promise
feeling like smking but can't
feeling like running out of the place when they talk
but no where i m wit then in the car

ar feelling ttaat something burning
i hate them i really hate them
i hate convesation wit parent
i hate it i hate it
i nv understand u all de
everything say is good for u but turn out to be
but trun out to be wat shit .................
bloody wat lor.................
say allow to piec eb and put tattadoo
but now don't wan allow wat shit
don't allow u think i care
wan a computer also don't have get for brother a new wan how unfair
is this fair tat my brother get all the thing for free and i have to get it in my own
i really think tat is _________
ar don't wish to say ..............
why am i in tis kind of family
wherer all my frenz think i lucky and bron in a silver spoon
i rather be normal like everyone
where i don't need to brother about it
i hate convesation

today morning she* bright up my morning for a monentt than goes back to slp i guess

yesterday night also the the samne and the day before .........piec so many ear hole make me feel like piecing it again but if i piec sure ppl say i look more like ah bang so better not ,,,,,,,,,,

yesterday make her* wait for so long so ps let her wait for me ...being wearing white t shirt ,,,than from frenz house come down sure got think i smoke right but no i nv smoke le for tis month ...........friday sent angline go home took 172 to lot1 and took back to jp ..and walk her home ........so bad of her to let me hit the sign board ..nv see it ....hit my forehead ...pain than over there laugh ...hrmm ....

walk her from gek poh road till blk wat shell tat side ....than sit at the playgroung till 9+ ......than she go home

.....

When I was younger never went to farHeld my feelings and never even wanted to startso when i met you, i didnt knowwhat you were gonna do with my heartWhen you talk (I cling on every word you say)when you walk (Just like a breeze on a summer day)when you smile (the sky turns from grey to blue, thats what you do)And your the kind of girl I think ofand your the kind of girl I dream aboutmy heart is telling me that I need you in my world (in my world)cause you my kind of lady (your my kind of girl)When I'm not with you, where ever you arebaby I'm counting the moments till I'm back in your armsall I want is to have you here with meevery night and every day, when you talk(I cling on every word you say)when you walk (Just like a breeze on a summer day)when you smile (the sky turns from grey to blue, thats what you do)And your the kind of girl i think ofand your the kind of girl i dream aboutmy heart is telling me that I need you in my world (in my world)cause you my kind of lady (your my kind of girl)Baby girl I need you here by my sideand if your there everything will be alrightcause this is the time for us, baby be mineAnd your the kind of girl I think ofand your the kind of girl I dream aboutmy heart is telling me that I need you in my world (in my world)cause you my kind of lady (your my kind of girl)

2006-03-11T06:28:00.000-08:00

guess who is tis for ______*

you have been hurt by unspeakable pain and sadness
let me carry or indelible stains
don't give up on living
i held your hand and hold it tight
will i end up losing u someday
i wan protect ur dream and ur fading smile so
even if the resounding voice calling me wither
i find you
don't say thing like i don't know
there meaning in everything that happen in the unseen furture
so stay as you are from now i know there wil come a time
when u realise it
someday we 'll understand each other

Oh yeh, I’ll tell you something, I think you’ll understand, Then I’ll say that something, I wanna hold your hand, . Oh please say to me You’ll let me be your man, And please say to me, You’ll let me hold your hand, Now let me hold your hand, I wanna hold your hand. And when I hold ur hand I feel happy inside, It’s such a feeling That my love I can’t hide, . Yeh, you got that something, I think you’ll understand, When I feel that something, I wanna hold your hand . And when I hold onto you I feel happy inside, It’s such a feeling That my love I can’t hide, Yeh, you got that something, I think you’ll understand, When I feel that something, I wanna hold your hand,

it for her*

2006-03-08T20:26:00.000-08:00

hey i did'nt meant to wrt those words .................those fucking thing ..................is just tat ...........i really can't bare as u say to watch u suffer i did'nt meant maybe u are a just important tat why i don't wish to see u ...happen anything to u ..............all i wish i to wit u ...............

pls don't be angry don't leave me ...............i really meant it ............is just tat i ...............

maybe i scare to lost u tat why i not happy .............

u ssay u don't wish the person u love to fight and i aslo don't wish u to get hurt ....................pls will u forgive me ..............

to her* only

nobody really know who i am

i never felt this empty before

and if i ever need someone to come along

who gonna comfort me

and keep me strong

the peaceful days stay the same

the moon has became full in cycles

shinning on the boat on the sea

wishing to the sky looking forward everyday

the wave keep moving to the end of the world

will 4give me and i really don't wan u to leaves me alone
cause i noe tat i still love u*
pls pls pls plsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplspls
i nv noe it will cause tis ending but i sorry will forgive me

2006-03-08T03:03:00.000-08:00

ah fucking ass chee bye let need to rush home and tell my bro not to come down le so wat lor now every t hing last min now nearly got my bro angry sia he(st) and 2 ppl lor end up .........go out ..........than 4+ all go wait for ppl they went to hys wait for gf huh...... than i go to a frenz house
.....so kind of her .......let me slp ........ when home at 630 so early ho go home lately must go out again i think to clementi maybe going

ah all u wan is go la....... go to his house la .................
find him ........la...........does'nt matter let me and jh ...hard to call off......
he ask u to do wat than u do ................listen to all u wan ...............
he ask u do any thing than u do ......... j.h and me not tat important la we konw la go la go la ...............we are just distyrdance to u la .............ah we r just gangster after all tat noe how to lan lan la ..........go listen to him all u wan .............x)

don't say tat i won't bare to cause one day i noe i will ................
and the distance guap willbe far far apart le i would just close my eyes and let go everything and accpet wat ever is in frount of me ........and will learnt to to wat even to get tat goal no matter at wat cost even my fucking idiot life
i nv know when it wil be but it will be near soon .....
till the day come ............wondering will u be the one to smack alll the dream imginatoin hope wish and everything else.........in me ....
falling apart le but tis time i won't make it le.............

don't noe will i or not full of _____

2006-03-07T04:06:00.000-08:00

WOOH ....AH..........AH......ah...........!!!!!!
bloodly stress took back the result .................
feel like bruning it ...................
wooh...ah ....ah .....!!!!
feel like shouting all out ...................
so much thing happen ................
tis ...... month .... tis.....week
can't take it le..............
feel like ____ !!!
too many think stuck in head le
wan tihnk to take than out and burn alone
wit the result ............
than i could 4get everything wat i have done
so many sins...so evil.....so devil....so bloodly fucker
hate myself hate my life hate schooling
hate everything tat brought me to now
hate hate how to study ....
so many RED line ,...../.
everyday teacher nag and nag
feel like opening my head and take out everything
and brun those thing alone wit the result
can't take tis bloodly fucking life le
am i really still a gangster
wit the bloodly fucking attuide
oNe thing i learnt alone the road is
" TO LET GO and ACCPET WAT INFROUNT OF U "
NV leting go of my study and accpet my bloodly result
stress stress
i don;t wan to contince being a gangster tat
only noe how to have bloodly life
i wanne take a whole new step out of it
i don't wan to have bloodly result again
wooh...ah..ah....
i is maube my fate of having tis kind of life

2006-03-07T03:09:00.000-08:00

WOOH ....AH..........AH......ah...........!!!!!!
bloodly stress took back the result .................
feel like bruning it ...................
wooh...ah ....ah .....!!!!
feel like shouting all out ...................
so much thing happen ................
tis ...... month .... tis.....week
can't take it le..............
feel like ____ !!!
too many think stuck in head le
wan tihnk to take than out and burn alone
wit the result ............
than i could 4get everything wat i have done
so many sins...so evil.....so devil....so bloodly fucker
hate myself hate my life hate schooling
hate everything tat brought me to now
hate hate how to study ....
so many RED line ,...../.
everyday teacher nag and nag
say waer long pants le
much not act in tis way
now just too much thing happen
can't take tis amore .........
every tears i drop now .....
will just leave a un4giving past
wan give up my life le............
wan give up everything won't wanne face it
just too many thing le ...
i nv 4get wat i done tis year .....tis will be it
tears why can't i stop it i i i i i i
hate my bloodly ass life ,,,,,
nothing good i done ......
than am i really still a gangster
wit those bloodly fucking attuide ............
many thing change as i walk tis path and
oNe thing i learnt is to " let go the past and
accpet wat infrount of u "
wat bull shit .....let go my study accpet my fucking result .....
NV if i contince tis i would be________ sck
i don't wan to stay 4ever a gangster infrount of you all
i wanne be treat in the same way
i NO WAN TO BE A GANGSTER 4EVER
wat kind of fucking world is tis bloodly stress
STRESS STRESS
wan take a whole new step to the world tat i can get respert

2006-03-06T08:16:00.000-08:00

today i really don't know wat to wrt cause ..
maybe always the time see her* sad ..
i don't really noe how to cheer her* up ..
even if she don't wan to tell me wat happen i also noe
....it all about him .....

may be there something i wan say to her *
till the day come than say ..............
trying to 4get the past .....but i can't
cause there too much ----------- in it

2006-03-06T05:28:00.000-08:00

there she* goes agian sad and moodly
guess i nv noe wat she being thinking

i see u on a street
i wan't to say hi
i wan to keep u accomopy
but there no space for me

i saw tears dropping
i saw the pian u felt
i saw u fall
i saw there bleed briping
i saw the scar left behind

i did'nt know wat do
feel like shouting .......

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause
I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but
I don't know nothing 'bout love
Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love
So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love
Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love
These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no Come on,
Come on
Move a little closer Come on,
Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on,
Come on Settle down inside my love
Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighterCome on,
come on We were once
Upon a time in love
We're accidentally in love Accidentally in love [x7]
Accidentally I'm In Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love,Accidentally [x2]
Come on, come onSpin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her Love
...I'm in lov

pls will u* stop being sad
i don't wish to contince see u* sad
i wan u to smile and be happy tat i
i wan wish tat all

2006-03-05T15:50:00.000-08:00

you* ask me not to be sad and be happy when u* r sad
for tat i will not cause when u are sad i guess i try to make u smile even for tat sec i happy if it ............and now u just ................
if tis the way u really wwwan me treat u in tiiiiiiis way if so i just sit at a side and don't even broad if tis the way u wan u can tell me and i just disapper and nv appear infront of u i nv disturb u agian ..........and i guess from the beginging i just a person tat disturb ur life ........if tat so i will nv agian ....... .................
i hope u see tis and tell me wat u wan ................and i just the way u wan ...............

when i wrting tis tears just drop off from my eyes
why are there tears droping off when i wrting tis why can't i just control my tears why must i drop my tears for u*
the tears i drop will fill up a river 1 day and tat the day u left me and i also leaves tis vry sckk and ....my life will be diff from tat day on works ...................

if he can bring u smnile and happiness to ur life ...........than i guess iit best for u ,,,,,than i wish u both a till the end ,,,,,,,,,,,,,

,u don't need to cry when u read tis or maybe u nv even cry after reading tis ..................but i did
why must i cry i guess is cost i still love u but now i guess it the end .................i hope i able to ............iiif not .......................tat why ppl say nothing last 4ever ...............................is tis the true words i wish to say cause i don;t even know whether i still love her* i just wish to open my heart and see it ................or else ...............................................
i gyess i be returning to the gangster me again .................................

wat will i do when 1day i leaves tis world wat will i do when i leaves sck ...........
i juuust don't know till the vry last day ..............................x<> tears continsel to flow down ,my eyes and my heart is starting to shatter into pieces ............................ once again ......and.................now i just wish there is someone to bright my life again ............waitingg for the person toooo ..........could it still be her or other...........

2006-03-05T04:10:00.000-08:00

for you*

Every breath you take,
every move you make
Every bond you break,
every step you take
I'll be watching you

Every single day, ( every day looking at u )
every word you say ( i rmd it )
Every game you play, ( cheering for u )
every night you stay ( when u awake trying to keep u accompy)
I'll be watching you ( trying to bright ur path )

Oh can't you see ( do u know )
You belong to me ( cause i know )
How my poor heart aches ( i still love u )
With every step you take ( trying to be wit u )

Every move you make, ( wonder u took the right path )
every vow you break ( i try to not make than break )
Every smile you fake, ( to make than real )
every claim you stake ( u still win in the end .)
I'll be watching you ( even if u can't see )

Since you've gone ( wishing one day u will return )
I've been lost without a trace ( finding the way back)
I dream at night, ( there is only u )
I can only see your face ( and no one else)
I look around but it's you (trying to find u )
I can't replace ( cause i be there all the time)
I feel so cold and ( u warm me )
I long for your embrace ( till now )
I keep crying baby, baby, please ( will u come back )

Every move you make, ( u leave a trace for me )
every vow you break ( it will still come true )
Every smile you fake, ( will be real one day )
every claim you stake ( will be urs )
I'll be watching you ( every single day)
Every move you make, ( will be nearer one day )
every step you take ( the nearer it is )
I'll be watching you ( again 'n' again)

I'll be watching you ( until the last soul )
Every breath you take, ( i can feel it )
every move you make ( the nearer u r )
Every bond you break, ( i still be there )
every step you take ( the brighter it is )
I'll be watching you ( no matter wat )
Every single day, ( i can't stop thinking of u )
every word you say ( i kept on thinking wat u say )
Every game you play,( cheering u till u win )
every night you stay ( the days are nearer )
I'll be watching you ( every single day )
Every move you make,( guideing ur path )
every vow you break ( it does'nt meant to me )
Every smile you fake, ( there will be 1 day a true smile for u )
every claim you stake ( the days are closer )
I'll be watching you{ i wish i be able watch and take care of u 1 day }

for you*
i wish to tell you the day the hour the mintues my love for you became real. i only know it seems i've loved you forever.......!!!!

2006-03-05T01:51:00.001-08:00

tis has a deep meanting in it

2006-03-05T01:51:00.000-08:00

tis has a deep meanting in it

2006-03-05T01:50:00.000-08:00

2006-03-05T01:46:00.001-08:00

tis has a deep meanting in it

2006-03-05T01:46:00.000-08:00

tis has a deep meanting in it

2006-02-28T06:56:00.000-08:00

just hear tat micky is vry moodly .....so i msg her
how r u have u 4goten about me ...yeah still rmb ..wat u doing ...lying on the bed ...can't slp ...donno just feel down......don't feel down cause u got me as a frenz to cheer u up .....ya thk.....but donno y my heart aches n tears keep flowing than let me use a glue to paste it back and hold ur heart so it won't sink ...!!!anyway at less i casn make u smile for a sec micky ....tat will do ....don't think too much think ..............hope u be fine take care .......msg me k ..cause i always make time to chher u up !!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-28T06:02:00.000-08:00

today life was boring ......got scold early in the morning ...2 time by JEE ....one is throw bag infront of her cause she make trouble for me ..........and math nv have file teacher say must hang in today ,.....in the beginging thought she* nv bring the for me .....but going to SC lesson she pass to coey nv say thanks to her* .and in tat file got a choc ...so intent to return her* something cookies but fail nvm maybe next time ............today after school when outside to meet frenz at ------ place .............when to hys to find a person .......than 4 ppl apro than ask y we here ......!!!!!!!!!! than we nv say anything just stare at than ........anyway my frenz only looking for a person tat bully a frenz ...........than try my luck see wheater got see my sis ...........no nv see.........than !!!!!!!!!!till she msg acctuly wan go JP de but end up nv .............she* msg me today y i go home so early ........than msg msg than ask me not to find him ........than i say k ........even if find .......!!!!!! read till something it say Love Vs Courage
1) you 've arrange to go cycling wut ur gal and u 're at house to pick up her . wat colour is she wearing !!A) black B) yellow C) red D) white ..............
2)the both of u r on the bicycle path , when u hear mewing sound.U stop and look around , and find a little kitten by the side of the road who look injury ...wat colour is the kitten ?? A) yellow B ) black C ) white D) maroon ..
3) after doing what u can to help the kitten , u both cycle on .u reach the end of the end of the path than u notices some flower further down .. wat colour r the flowers A) red B) yellow C) white D) blue..........
4) after everything ur gf wan buy u a snack ..u both step into a cafe for cake and coffee ..wat cake would u order A) butter cake B) cheesecake C) starwberry shhortcake D) black forest ..........

i choose a,d,b,b.....and i got 20 its say u 'r r full of nerves u may be near to the gal u like but u tend to break into cold sweats if u talk to her .Don't be afraid of reject tion and make the first moves !!!

if like it say take the fast move will she accpet i wonder or she has gone back to him

she told me something tat many ppl say we stead how i wish we were tat some one dare ferlin to go find her* .........i sure which bastrub wrt tat sure ask frenz cone down and it will be 1_ siao de .....even thought i promise her* not to involve but some how i did and recuently something happen ...........i don't think i should tel her * so she won't have to worrry and frenz too ............wantell her even if i gone i still wish to see ur smile ...................

2006-02-27T03:17:00.000-08:00

today not really in the mood got my hair cut by miss tan and my colour also cut all away ..............than did'nt take my science common test .........got only for 10 min time to do only finish 2 pg out of 6 .......think i will fail ........school also really not tat good .......see mdm jee she wan wrt a bad coment in my report don't noe wat she will wrt ..............tooday kind of moodly cause i can't pass my test and my hair was cut till vry short wan .....wat le ........fcuk !!not really in a mood to wrt blog ................????today saw her a few time but nv talk to her even one time today x( but at least saw her tat time she quiet happy ....than can le .....i don't noe y now aday i not happy but when u see mE i and smiling is a fake de i don't really wish my bro frenz to worRy and her* .............

kIm my bro dream a ------- dream involve me in it
he say tat i join P.H.T than he in _ ._ than....... one day cause of a gal` than fight ....tat gal`tat time msg me than i nv reply back her than kim msg her` than build tat relation wit her` than tat time time she* fall sick than i was there wit her taking care of her* ..........after she* recover than i msg the other gal` than my frenz tell me tat she` and kim wat ......le .....than i ask him to come down to jp than he came alone than i wack him up wit my frenz ...........than she` come and look for kim ........than ask me to stop than she help kim up than she` and kim say we have nth to do wit me anymore and walk away ..............than 1 day when causeway than kim bang me than i turn around and look at him than say where not happy ...than she` was cheering for him .....than she* ask kim not to fight than push her* on the floor than i give kim a punch on his face after she* fall on the floor than fight le ..........than both end up got catch and was in jail.........<> ( will it come true or is just a dream ) i nv let anyone hurt u * de

2006-02-26T02:38:00.000-08:00

ToDay morning boodly eArly wAkE uP !!!!!!!!!!!!!gOt dIstuRb bY 2 frenz wAkE just ask wan go together............SRY HOR !!!!todAyy gOt morning appointment wIt DM ...............!!!!!!!tOoK hEr ___ ...............!!!!!!tOdAy gOt 3rd in the wAt gAme ...................!!!!!!!!

AftEr tAt whEn to chervon to play bowling but there no line for ask so play pool end up only play the last 2 game ......................i lost to everyone todAy cause i finishing ball i shOot the (8) so kind of me losting to u all ..............i had no i idea y i look so moodly when u guys r playing .............................thanks guys for cheering me up .......................

tis is for her * and only her*

i got feeling my needs and i've be with u

if i cross million ocaen just to be wit u

would u ever let me down

if i climbed the highest mountian just to hold u tight

if i say i would love u every single night

would ever let me down

when i sry when it sound kind of sad

worry i so worry tat u let me down

if i swam aong the river just to call ur name

cause i love u

i guess u nv noe how much thing i wan to tell u ...........i don't ever noe wheater i should say .............u nv noe how much i wish to be the wan to hold ur hand but i guess it nv de ...when i saw ur pic wit him i thinking tat wat JH tell me de he ask me to ask but till now i don't think le ...i noe tat if he ask u u sure go back to him de and i lost u agian ..but it nvm de as long as u r happy tat all i wan to see ........and i did'nt maent to push u to other guys cause i just jesious i guess all ppl in tis world will ....i wonder wat jesious would bring alot of harm ,,,,,,,,,,,,i dare noty to say ____ when i saw tat .....when JH call me today and tell me ......i was thuinking but i afraid to lost u again and ...i just wish someone would shoot me thought than i don't have top worry so much ....and someone would open my heart and u noe wat i wish to tell u .............even i don't even noe how to say cause i just scared .............

sry about just now wat i told u
i did'nt meant tat i wan push u to other guy
if can i will wan to keep u to myside only
i did have the courage to say tat i love u
i did have the coyrage to ask u for patch
cause i sacred to lost u agian
i did have the courage to say it all out
but i really wan to let u noe
tat how much i love u
even if i got the courage to tell u
i don;t even noe wat will u be thinking
i just wish 1 of tis day i be the wan to be holding ur hand
and be the wan to carry ur pain
i wonder when will it cime true
sometime i even wonder is he more important than me
or i more important
i nv noe tat i noe
but i justy wish i more than him
u nv be replace by any gals cause u
someone more special than any gal i noe
even if other gal can replace u like u say i
they also won't have tat much than u .
i just hope u would be happy
i noe i made my mistake once
for not tresuring u but now if i could i would

i just wish to say i love u* for the botton of my heart

2006-02-24T11:56:00.000-08:00

i change a new hair style again ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,sure monday won't pass de but still cut ....back nice infront don't know how to make ................tis the back view .....!!!

whEn to toWn alone at night to meet frenz so sain all alone in the mrt ......loOnely lIke hell............thought she* there than go there but nVm at less my freNz are there .......than she* go lot one .....how sad thought go there than she* go other place ..............reach elsap about 8 than cindy came and fetch me so kind of her ......... 6 ppl there any sufian and fiqah had some arguement .....don't care thier relationship is not my prodelm later i get scold or wat for nO reason .............when home first about 958pm cause ciNdy not feeling weLl than waLk tiLl the mRt henry and mezi call say they all also wan go home than go home ..........walk both of them home than head back to JP buy thing ........walking saw one of my a.s.t the brother .....call him ...than talk to him ....ask wan go ...playground wait for the other...........than !!!!! guess urself wheater i got go !!!!!!!!!!!.............

taKen at 915 pm at elspa park oN 25 fEb
mE wIt cIndY ...........

the city of light ,,,,,,,taken at elspa
at 945 pm

tIs all r for hEr*

considering cuttting urself again than u will break the promise .........than i will tOo cause if u reallly break than i would'nt have to kept the promise to u* le...............even thought u* cut urself ...than u will feel better huh...........!!! how wat lor cut urself .......than....!!!!

i wonder tat when i outside ur door
when its rain.le ..will u be sad x( when --- me
i wonder when u don't talk tat time wat r u thinking of
i wonder willu be thinking of me
even thought i not the person tat holding ur hand...
i won't be worry
cause i know ur smiles x) will be like cheering for me...
i noe myself like wat but i tell myself ....i believe
1 day u will see me and..........
1 day i be the one to be by urside......
i wonder when there no shadow cause u r on the phone
i wonder wat u r doing tat time will u be thinking of me
even thought like story book say even u r not holding on to my hand
i see also won't be worry ............
cause i noe when i see ur smile ..i just treat tat u r cheering for me
even don't i don't know wat i think of trying to tell myself to believe
u will see me de ........at 1 time at person will be me
even thought tat will be long long time
don't noe when it will come true but as long as i see ur smile tat will do
imaging u r cheer for me
i don't know wat i being thinking to believe tat 1 of theses day
i be by urs side and i don't when it will come true ..............

the person by ur side .........will be me.................

tis is for someone* special .....................by winson

2006-02-23T05:47:00.000-08:00

tOdAy hEr* birthday wish her a " happy birthday " ................aNd all hEr dream come true ....................

toDay when out wit her* but something happen alone the wAy J.H and C.H agure alone the way ..............make me so hard to do and her* ...............give her * her birthday and belated vant present ...........hope she like it although is not tat nice !!!...................today when home after school .......than when home than when back to school to wait for her* ......sitted down there for half an hour i guess wit j.h and his stead..and iqbal...............than wait until she come out wit S.Q than when out to eat ...................than go chervon to play pool .....something happen .................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!............
till 6 + than go home ...........wow don't noe she* can pull me x) ......
than sufian they al;l ask me to go meet them but end up go starfar ........ than kim ..J.H go my house and stayover night .............

tML got cross country ........no needd to run ...........hope all of u good luck for it ....................and her* wish to be able to see her* and cheer for-___........................ tat all now got to go accomanpy kim they all

2006-02-22T04:51:00.000-08:00

wow cao how come everyone show me black faceX( cause of j0ining ---- again if i join u alldon't wan to talk to me how cAn ........give me sOmemore time to thing about it ..............u guys if i turn tat bad too won't like wat de lor ,,,,,,,,,if i really join hope we all r still frenz ..................... X( sO tried have to thing "stress " i don't even know wan to join ur crew or not still thinking about it if join still need to give fund than u say only good thing inside nO bad thing .................thAn smoking is good thing ...........wow headachu ................join u all somemore almost all r malay .............!!!! wat u all wan me to dO than still wan me to go home tat late !!!! nOw i almost can't hang out tat far ...........need to study so won'nt fail my exam ............can't wait till the day come.......wheater i will pass or not .............x( or x)

tml her* birthday wan wish her *wan wish her* haPPy birthday ...................may all ur wish come true ............................ttat all i guess present don;t know till tml than decide cause won't be seeing her in the morning and afternoon ..................than some more i re-do everything so rush ...............but not nice cause not enough thing to do it ...........................i noe u hate her tat much ,,,,,,,, but u can't compear wit her de cause u r some special and diff form her .............wish one day u and her may be frenz one day .......................hoping tis day may come ....x) .....iit will sure brighter my life de ...........x'' ..............tml hope u have a great time cause is ur birthday although u say it not important .......................but hope u tresaure it cause u 1 year older le ........................hope to see u smile x)

2006-02-21T02:49:00.000-08:00

feEling kind of happy cause ferlin wrt something for me in ....................hEr blOg ...............sO tOuChing ...........!!!!!!!!!! wan cry le ..............!!!!!! say such thing tat make me feel like wat ,...........ya i alway be there for u de ................and if tis school got ppl bully u much tell me ............. and ................................ thanks for cheering me i always be there for u de !!!!X)..............

theRe many thing happen to today as well ...............!!!!!!!!!!near ken scold by JEE agian too wat le ...............today have pizza wit my class ............eat only one pieces .....tat all but got the drinkl all to my self de ....................but sufian take it out for my bag .....................inten to go queenway to day de but end up drinking wit frenz .....................than close my h.P tat time ..................so it will be peaceful for tat time .................................drank "BOMBAY SAPPHIRE " from london any way not my money so don't care ................................only drink half a bottle cause tml still got school ...............spend 4 hours drinking half of it .............wow don't know alan is such a good drinker today how come all of sudden look for me cause wan to drink only .............hrmm sry i did'nt know something happen to u .........................X( tml u no need to work but i have to study le ,.........., how can look for me !!!!!!!!! but i will help u de even if i younger than u 5 years old
!!!!

yesterday njght i really disapointed for wat she say t0 me birthday is noy important shock to heard tat how disapointed i guess i might as well give uop acctuly thinking of asking --- to swenden but now got nothing to say thinking should i give or not nOw ..............?????

tis is acctuly for her de but now think should i do ???giVe oR doN't give ..........!!!!!!!!!better not i guess ..................

j.h told me if i go join ---- again than ......kim............no be my bro le ..........!!!!and frenz !!!!.........how !!!!!! i wan to join but got so much troudle ???? how ???

2006-02-20T04:49:00.000-08:00

toDAy after i reach home about 8 + ferlin msg me and ask wheater i got smoke of course"NO" and she told me tat it not good for ur heatlh and don't for get ur underage HaHa !!!!!! underage but there allow of thing i can do now !!!!!!!!!!the gutiar i holding on is when when i playing the song lemon tree !!!!!!!!!suprise tat i noe sure a old song ...........!!!!!X)...............think of playing tis song for her de but now i guess i better give up .................................cause i nv be able to do it de ! x"

even don't there no more turning back for me

if there is 2 path which wan would u choose ????
....first is the darkest path and u all alone
......sec is the path where there is a bright light
lighting ur path and ur wit ur frenz
........which wan would u choose !!!

...........i told my self to choose the darkest path so i won't be see by anyone even if i got hurt or cry there would be no one to look at evan if i shout out loud no one would noe cause they can't see me....only i could see u and u can't see me X"..................there so much thing to be hide in the darkest ...................there so much past in it the darkest of the world ...............................even if i smile the darkset would cover it ........................therer so much thing u could do in the dark !!!!!!!!!!!!! tears falling off for my eye cause i really .................can't contince le .........that all about to end le ......................a lady told me tat if i don't change or step on it i .......................i fall
and be let all alone in the dark ...............and i would not be able to climded out of it le :"

2006-02-20T04:16:00.000-08:00

TODAY LIFE SUCK

tODaY i really had nO moOd tO gO school.............but end up going school wit the moodly face and today go school wit a NEW HAIRSTYLE wow lao like vry de good bot today ...............JEE even say she like my hairstyle today ...........X( ......................how can i bet wit alex for having tis hairstyle today!!!!!!!!!!!!!..........today went out wit my frenz ...................gone to block 6-- at JP there !!!!!!!!!!!!if anyone looking for me .......i most prodely will be there ...all the time.......................today saw bryan going home alone ......................guess wat in my mind ...................wat SQ say de ..........i really like wat lor ..........but only got five ppl;the rest haven come X( .......................sit down there at the hut and me lying on the slide at the playground ...............than the police come!! iluckly i saw than tell my frenz who were smoking ...........!! then quickly throw the ------ on the floor !!!! than the police keep on walk walk walk and look at us ............................than !!!!!!!! today bro keep asking y i no mood ...........cause of her huh ...........than i say i really don't know !!!!!!!!!!

There just too much thing happen around me now aday ...............!!!!!!!!

my life is about to end ................wishing to buried all my " thought deep down the sea " and " my tears to keep it in my heart ".............................................................i about be --- of ------ le .....................................................................................i f i could not pass my exam tat it le.................................trying to forget everything ..........................................i wan be alone in the darkest ........................so .............tat the devil will not go .................!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-18T23:59:00.000-08:00

EVEN IF I GOT THE KEY

even if i got the key so wat ............................i can open all door ..............................but not to her* cause her heart is not open for me ....................so sad x( ......................tears droping off from my eyes ................................

....even if i can open the door to her* ....................she might not even let me in ............................even if i wan to climb in and reach out a hand to her ..........................she might not even wan...........................even if i to go tat distance for her .......................she might not even care ..............................even if i broken my hand for her ..............................she might brother for me ..................................even if i took the star from the sky for her ..........................she might even just throw it all.................................even if i done so much for her ..................................she might not even take a look ..............................even if i hurt myself ................................she might even worry for me..................................even she in troulde i stand by her side .................................she might not appriecte it .........................................even if i alway there for her............................................she might not even wan to be there for me ...............................even if i took my guts to say tat i love u ....................................she might not even hear it ......................................even if i kept waiting for her .....................................she might nv give tis chance ............................................even if i tresyre her life tat much .........................................she might not even treasure .it............................................even if i make her dream come true ........................she might not not even treasure it ..............................even if i wan to be ur fansaty ...............................ishe might not give me tis chance.................................even if i wan to be ur hope and love ........................she might not wan............................................even if i wan to stand wit u at the mountain ...........................she might think is too far ...................................even if i wan to walk wit her alone the sand ...................................she might think is dirty .....................................even if i wan ................she might not even ..................................x( tears droping for my eye deep down my heart i need u i know .................there not i not will ing to do for u

2006-02-18T20:48:00.000-08:00

SitTinG aLoNe iN tHe darkness of the world alone
can't see right i cause my life is tat dark

tis is for sOmE SpeCiaL De ******

i hAveN find the kEy tO oPeN thE dOor ..........!!!!!!!!!!!!

..............tAt i lOst TwIce bEfOre ..................

...................i dOn'T eVen knOw will i be able to find it agian.......

............eVen if i fOuNd It aGaIN ....i sCaRed tO loSt iT aGaIn........

...........i rEaLLy scArEd to lOst tIs kEy agian ............

.i wish there would be a person holding a gun and .........

...shoot me thought my head so i would not have to worry sO muCH

.......there mAny tHiNg deEp in mY hEaRt tAt i wan to say !!!!!!!!!!!

...........thEre tOo mUcH thinG stuCk in mY MinD ..........

...........I wiSh thEre bE a PerSon be by mY side.....and i still waiting ....

.........rEceNtly sO mUcH thiNg hAppen arouND mE ...........

..................aNd i reaLLy dOn"t knOw wAt tO dO ....................

............i wish tehere would be an aNgEl to birght up the darkness ..........

..............bright up the darkness in my life and taKe away all the thing stuCk in my mind........

..................deep down my heart i know there something ..................and .........i hope to tell u when the day come ....................when i found the lost key .................i now trying to serach for the key to all path to ur life ......

............."KEY" is the most important to open all the door .........even if u r all alone i be able to open the door to accompy U de .................................. even if there a huge wall i climded thougtht it inorder to be ___ u de ...........................and no matter wat i be there cheering for u de .................and i wish u could treasure ur life to the fullest even if i not there for u !!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-18T09:07:00.000-08:00

today nearly got into a fight wit other....luckly nv got stop by my bro ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,today meet her* see wan to cut her self cause she say i smoke ..............but i don't wish u to smoke or cut inorder for me not to smoke .....................i wish i haven smoke it before...............than now i would'nt have ...................infornt of her* today spolit 4 cirge so she would not cut her self and in order for her not to smoke ............took her panknife away ...............and sup can left 1 cirge de but SQ know there 4 inside !!!!!!!!!!! wow wat a waste there goes those cirge !!!!!!!!!!i sure tat if she cut her self than i will smoke 2 for each cut she cut herself ..................i hope i don't have to do tis cause i trying here to stop smoking !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

read her* blog just now tis time need pastwood so ask her lor ............than she give or nv give think urs self ................reading tat time feel vry .....diff tis time ..............."saw tat she cry and !!!!" today 10+ or 11+ than go back find my bro all of them so kind sited down there a bout 1 hour just tto wait for me to send both of them home HER* and SQ home .................i also wan to tell everyone on my school de tat i and ferlin is only sis and bro relationship oNlY tat ALL ....................and no wat she only my sis and i will protect her like bro and sis RE ,,,,,,,,,,,,,so don't any how say later than u noe !!!!!!!!! wish to tell her* something de ...................but no still not de right time i guess so i have to slowly wait till de right time!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-17T06:38:00.000-08:00

same goes my life again ......................today in school nothing much happen ,,,,only told mdm jee to smile cause it will bright up ur day ,,,,,,,,today when home after school nv wait for kim they all ,,,,,,,,than go home took taxi go home ,,,,,,,,,,after tat !!!! do all the than go down to JP meet them at 2 de but end up wait for them till 3 + !!! than head to city hall first .....there wwe smoke at the MB food crout but i did smoke at that time !!! till 5+ than go town ............wonder who will i meet there !!!!! ....no idea............walk walk walk than saw wow wat a cool sport car .....hoping 1 day i can drive it ONE DAY !!!! waiting for the day !!!!!!! about 7+ or 8+ saw ms tan and one more teacher luck tat time no one was smoking i nearing smoke but nv ,,,,,

8 45 we head back to city hall there we when to singapore river and find a dark spot to sit and enjoy the view ,........there we start to take out cirge ,,,,,,,,,there i started smoling 1 follow by her my sis and bro and frens i sit there alone at 1 side and there came along all the stress >>>>>>>>>>>it making my hes=ad too blrust >>>>>>>>>>>>>>there i take 2 only or 3 4get le sit there till 930 than i went off first leaving them alone cause i got too much to think ,,,,,,,,,,,when going back i don't know where the MRT so i ask ppl and they tell me so many dir <^> end up still got home !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! any wan to thank u guys to ask me out nice to go out wit u all !!!!!!!!!!!!!take care !!!!!!!!!!!!!

still not finish don't know how to contince it!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-16T06:08:00.000-08:00

today llife still go on as normal ..............but today got P.E wit chris .....prepare us for crosss contry run 1 round around corr road....ran the whole round wit sufrian than still must run three round but i did do something good today is to cheer for my frenz when they are runnig by my side !!!!!!.........after the run mr chris did talk to me !! he say tat am i wooing a ex gal !!!than i say don't know!! but he say it it his class de than !!!don't know le!!! but he promise me tat not to say out and he say must telll him if something happen aadvane cause he my ex form ........and he will help us de.......................but kind of worry for her* scare she got beat up or cut by other gal .................don't know how can i help her .................don't know anything happen to her today if did than i feel vry sad cause i go home vry de early today )x ............today also got the material but is vry hard to cut ....than think of give up ...still think ...haven made up my mind than some more her birth date coming le a=wat should i get for her!!!! ,,,,,,,,,,,,tml going town wit those malay guys ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,see wheater can get her wat ...............!!!!

2006-02-15T07:07:00.000-08:00

Today get back math test .........than i ..guess .... i got how much 2 i lose to tat black pig ...he get 15 de but i spot 1 mistake than i ask madam than he now fail by 2 mark cause of me (x guess he now really feel like killing me !!! today also nv get promte to >> so sad .....cause tat time really boring than nv wat lor...............tat wat happen to me today ..........in math and cca de time...................

kind of angry too today don't why but now aday no mood to study and going to school ,,,,,,school is like a pirson .........everyday sure get scold de first thing in hall than class ..................

juSt now she* told me tat must wat huh .......i 4get le .......yet don't give up .........somemore .....she say don't wheater tml ,,well get cut or involve in fight ....................i here tell tat person if u wan to cut her* better don't cut me instead of her* ,,,,,or 4get all the thing ,,,,,,,,be friend instead of enemy...............also just now read her blog again guess wat i really don't know how to say when i saw her blog axx the last wan !!!!!

2006-02-14T07:46:00.000-08:00

today is valentine day ,,,,,,,,,,,,did'nt celebrate wit anyone but i did recive a present for someone special ....!! If not for Mr koh i mike be ablet to take for her personal and don't need black hourse to pass it to me .............when i got back to class ....after seeing MK .......alex ask me to go to his sit there he pass me "a special thing" i nv thought i recive anything this year ,,,,,,, during math class alex almost read out wat the special person wrt to me ,,, so Ps le ,,,,,but luckly he haven read out all .........i quiet happy tat i recive this pig = her = special ........she say tat i bought tis pig = her to remind of her when i see tis pig / and it may not respond when i sad or angry but tis pig her will oweis be here i either a phone call away or a few house away (x hAha ! !

just now i saw her*** blog and i don't know wat to do too .............acctuly i don't really noe wat should i say to her when i saw her * ............today after school kindly of stupid join the cheer but end up my class de ppl turn up and the rest nv ,,,,,so angry or maybe i hear wor ....anyway ........kindly of happy too ......recive a present even thought is small but when i see it it will make me think of her * ...............i kindly of miss out something today nv say happy valentine day ...............but i did talk to her all thanks to KKo ......i really must thank him ......and sky she ask wat time i go home .......i think she say She* ask de !!!! talking to her tat time M and N walk pass so i grab both of them and push them away and she* told me tat i volient ): so sad after hearing tat but i noe i also volient ............i will try to be polite de ................

but i wan to tell her even thought i gone but i still be there for her and if there is a need ----------------de so don't cry )" if u really feel vry stress don't mind telling me i sure be there to listen de somemore i won't 4get u de i hope ..........i contin tml now vry late le

2006-02-13T06:30:00.000-08:00

acctuly i don't know wan to talk to her or not ...........but saw her nick than i ....think i should .....talk to her but is kind of diffurent tis time from before ..............maybe is cause i ''don't know how to say it '' maybe cause she pieces her tounge than is diff ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,or cause of other thing ,,,,,,,,,,,,today when i was at seragoon trying to get valentine present thinking who shall i get valentine present for ..........she also came to my mind .........don't know wheater will recivce any thing for her or not .................somemore i don't cindy got do cookiess or not if got yhan must becareful for those she give de ,,,,jk jk only if cindy don't mind k ................................................tis song u now hearing is for someone de ,,,,in tis world everyone has it own dream and dream are meant to be true u noe tis is real de ,,,,,,,,,so start to dream ,,,,,,,,,,,,the more u belived in it the more it will come true de ,,,,,,,,nv give up on wat u do cause u nv noe wat the asnwer till the end !!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-13T03:47:00.000-08:00

Tml valentine day le ....................don't know who will give me present .!!!!!!! hope she will be having a great time wit AP ...............!!.. sain now still need to study ...........any way break is coming le still have to carry on now .......also yesterday nite i saw her blog and i should not get into the picture ............last time .........i notice a few thing in her blog ......too,,,.....and where she get the picture of my lion dance ...............anyway tat the past le ......now .......everyday have to face so much prodlem ..................think i will be back wit the red soon .......cause reculty was involve wit them again ..................

2006-02-04T08:22:00.000-08:00

i kNoW sOme of the ppl think i a gangster ........................But for 2 fed i no longer i which i use to be ...............i promise someone tat i will quit it ...........so i did it i leave the whole thing le .......................from nOw i am going to be a regular person ............like everyone ...............i SorRy tO give u all lot of trouble in the beginning ..................tO all those frenz out there i promise to not give u all trouble.....agian ...................if cAn ......i try to nOt give trouble.......................but still as ususal if frenz is in troudle will still help .................so don't worry ..................On 2fed my right hand was injury and was bleeding badly but no wan was there to help me to stop the bleeding and i had to do it all by my self ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,i would'nt dare to cry it out but in my heart it was crying and i noe my "heart was shattering into pieces " and " it was the end " .....................................i wish there would be someone there for me all the times